Three In The Morning

This has been the most difficult two weeks of school. I've taken two tests, written a paper on a difficult subject, attended a musical performance that I will also be writing a paper on, and basically stress eaten my way through all of it. School is coming to an end, and just like any other college student at the end of the semester, I'm up because I just finished writing a paper that was due two days ago. Don't panic, it's just the rough draft. I still have another week to make any changes I need to the paper.

I have cried, eaten, consumed more caffeine that should be humanly allowed and tried to sleep more than I was awake. All in the name of succeeding in college. All of this would feel normal if I were 19 and living in a dorm, but I'm not. I'm a married 41 year old mom responsible for 2 1/2 kids. (yeah, the half one only lives here on the weekends for now)

In some ways, I wish I had a little bit longer in school. It has become a part of me. I am making friends, learning new things and feeling amazing. However, school IS ending for the semester. Time for more major tests, final grades and final goodbyes. On May 14, I will return my rented books to the bookstore and walk away for the summer. My only wish is that I were financially able to take the summer off to spend with my family. I will be going back to work full time as soon as they find the hours for me.

Which leads me to another dilemma. The owners have cut back on our hours, so there is no way for me to return to my job full time, which is necessary to cover living expenses for the summer until I get financial aid again in the fall. It's looking a little scary, but life has worked itself out one day at a time for me for the past 41 years, so good or bad, I'm going in head on.

As you can see from the title of this post, it is 3 in the morning. I need to wake the boys up for school in 4 hours, then a few hours after that, I have class myself. I have been up writing a  1200 word paper on my views about restraints in special needs classrooms. A very touchy subject. One very difficult to research and to stomach. I hope I did it justice.

With that, I'm off for a bit of sleep. Good night!